This is Paralysis.

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Kristen Gilbert was born on 13 November 1967 in Fall River, Massachusetts as Kristen Strickland. At school she was a typical teenage girl but as she got older she began to develop dishonest habits in her relationships, which were also tinged with violence. After school she went to Greenfield Community College, in Massachusetts. She began stealing and then denying it. She even told one victim that she had not stole her blouse even though Gilbert was wearing it at the time. In 1988 she married Glen Gilbert and shortly after began to work on Ward C of the Veteran’s Affairs Medical Center in Northampton. Her colleagues found her friendly and sociable and her bosses gave her performance top marks. In 1990 she gave birth to her first son - life seemed great. When she returned to work on the 4 p.m. to midnight shift, things began to go wrong. Patients began to die when Gilbert was on duty. She often gave her unqualified medical opinion, leading her colleagues to name her the Angel of Death. Many of the patients died of heart attacks, even when there was no history of cardiac problems. In 1993 Gilbert gave birth to her second son. Her home life changed and Glen told friends that he thought his wife was trying to poison him. She began an affair with James Perrault, a security guard at the hospital. In December 1994 she left her husbands and son to move in with Perrault. The death count on the hospital began to rise. Her colleagues checked the stock room and found that there was a shortage of epinephrine (synthetic adrenaline), a drug that stimulates the heart. One day Gilbert asked her boss if she could leave work early if one of her patients died and she was told that she could. Shortly afterwards, the patient died.

In February 1995 an Aids sufferer had a relapse under Gilbert’s care and her fellow nurses went to the hospital authorities. In Gilbert’s seven years on the ward, 350 men had died. It was believed that Gilbert would dose the men with epinephrine so they would go into cardiac arrest, when her lover would be called. She would then impress him with her nursing skill. When she was suspended from the ward the death rate returned back to normal. In mid 1996 James Perrault tired of the affair. Kristen Gilbert took an overdose and was admitted to a psychiatric ward. When some of the victims’ bodies were exhumed, epinephrine was found in the body tissues. In 1998 Gilbert was charged with murder and Perrault testified against her. He claimed that she had told him, “You know I did it. You wanted to know I killed those guys.” On 14 March 2001 Gilbert was convicted of three counts of first-degree murder, one count of second-degree murder, and two counts of attempted murder. She was sentenced to life in prison.

Kristen! You share your name with a serial killer!

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James Bulger, age 2, was abducted from a shopping center by Jon Venables and Robert Thompson, both age 10 and led nearly three miles to a railroad track where he was tortured and killed on Feb. 12, 1993. The boys were found guilty of murder on Nov. 24, 1993 and spent 8 years in detention for this crime. They are free now with lifelong anonymity.

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Candace Newmaker was a ten-year-old girl, who died at the hands of her adoptive mother and her therapist. She was killed a 70-minute attachment therapy session to allegedly treat reactive attachment disorder. The treatment used that day included a rebirthing script, during which Candace was suffocated. The whole thing was recorded, this is the transcript:

Julie Ponder (therapist) tells Candace to lie down on the navy blue flannel sheet and get into the fetal position.

Ponder: So imagine yourself as a teeny little baby inside your mother’s womb and what it felt like. Warm. It felt tight because her stomach was all around you.

[Candace is bound in the sheet, the ends twisted above her head and held by Ponder, who grasped them in both fists as one would grasp the top of a bag he’s trying to hold shut. She is covered by pillows and four adults, with a combined weight of 673 pounds, who begin pressing on the 10-year old, 70-pound girl.]

01:25 — Ponder: What do you think you thought about when you where in there?

I thought I was gonna die.

Ponder: You thought you were gonna die in there?

Yeah.

Jeane Newmaker: I’m so excited. I’m going to have a brand new baby. I hope it’s a girl. I’m going to love her, to hold her and tell her stories… I’m going to keep her very safe… Every day we’ll be together and she’ll be with me forever.

(Candace is asked if she believes what her mother is saying.)

Uh huh.

(Candace is asked how that makes her feel.)

Happy.

Watkins: If the baby doesn’t decide to be born, she will die. [This must be what the therapists had in mind when they later said that they took “cues” from what Candace said. She said that she felt like she was going to die, and they took that as a cue that overcoming this is the challenge they should give her.] When the baby decides to be born it’s a wonderful thing.

Ponder: So little baby, are you ready to be reborn?

Uh huh.

Ponder: Come out head first. You have to push really hard with your feet. If you stay in there you’re going to die and your mommy’s going to die.

08:42 — Who’s sitting on me? I can’t do it.

08:53 — I can’t do it! [Crying]. My hands come out first?

Watkins: Sometimes it takes 18 hours to be born.

09:36 — [Screaming] I can’t do it. I can’t do it! I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe!

10:16 — Whoever is pushing on my head it’s not helping. I can’t do it. I can’t do it. I can’t breathe. It’s too dark under here. Please quit pushing on my head. I can’t do it. Somebody’s sitting on top of me.

10:50 — [Moaning] Somebody’s on top of me. Where am I supposed to come out? Right here? Where my finger is?

11:26 — I can’t do it. [Screams] I’m gonna die.

Ponder: Do you want to be reborn or do you want to stay in there and die?

11:40 — Quit pushing on me. Please. [Moaning] Quit squishing my legs. I’m gonna die now. [Screams]

Ponder: Do you want to die?

No, but I’m about to.

Therapist: That’s the way the baby feels. You want to die?

[Desperately] Yes

Therapist: For real?

Yes.

Therapist: Go ahead and die.

12:10 — Please, please I can’t breathe.

12:30 — I can’t do it anymore.

12:40 — Please quit pushing on me.

13:12 — I need some help. Help! Help me please.

Watkins: Are you feeling the contractions, mom?

Newmaker: I am.

13:43 — Where am I to go? Right here? Right here? I’m supposed to go right here? Please. Please. [Screams] OK I’m dying. OK, I’m dying. I’m sorry.

14:31 — OK, I’m dying.

14:38 — I’m going to die.

15:30 — I want to die.

16:08 — Can you let me have some oxygen? You mean, like you want me to die for real?

Ponder: Uh huh.

Die right now and go to heaven?

Ponder: Go ahead and die right now. For real. For real.

OK, I’m dead.

Watkins: It’s not always easy to live. You have to be really strong to live a life, a human life.

17:07 — [Labored breathing] Get off. I’m sick. Get off. Where am I supposed to come out? Where? But how can I get there?

Watkins: Just go ahead and die. It’s easier… It takes a lot of courage to be born.

18:26 — You said you would give me oxygen.

Watkins: You gotta fight for it.

19:50 — [Candace vomits] OK, I’m throwing up. I just threw up. [Vomiting] I gotta poop. I gotta poop.

21:24 — Uh, I’m going in my pants.

Ponder: Go ahead.

Watkins: Stay in there with the poop and vomit.

23:22 — Help! I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe. It’s hot. I can’t breathe.

Newmaker: I’m so excited to have this baby… I’m waiting for you, to love you and hold you…

Ponder: Scream, Candace.

No.

Newmaker: Baby, I love you already. I’ll hold you and love you and keep you safe forever… Don’t give up on your life before you have it…

32:25 – 33:44 — (Jack McDaniel repositions himself on a pillow over Candace’s head.)

Ponder: Candace? [No response] [Takes another pillow from Newmaker. Ponder repositions her body and pushes on Candace with her hands and body, grunting twice.] She needs more pressure over here so she can’t… so she really needs to fight. [McDaniel repositions himself on the pillow over Candace’s head, and she whimpers.]

Watkins: Getting pretty tight in here.

Ponder: Yep… less and less air all the time.

35:39 – 40:00 — (Ponder and McDaniel reposition themselves again.)

Ponder: She gets to be stuck in her own puke and poop.

Watkins: Uh huh. It’s her own life. Quitter.

40:01: Newmaker: Baby, do you want to be born?

[Weakly responds] No. [This is Candace’s last word.]

McDaniel: Mama got you this far, now it’s up to you.

Watkins: Candace is used to making her life everybody else’s problem. She’s not used to living her own life.

Ponder: Quitter, quitter, quitter, quitter, quit, quit, quit, quit. She’s a quitter.

(Watkins leaves, Newmaker leaves. McDaniel takes Watkins’ place. Watkins returns.)

McDaniel: This baby doesn’t want to live. She’s a quitter.

(Watkins tells McDaniel and St. Clair to take a break.)

(Ponder and Watkins discuss someone who is stressed, then chitchat about their dream homes and a million-dollar property nearby that is being remodeled.)

Watkins: Let’s talk to the twerp.

(They unwrap Candace.)

01:09:53 — Watkins: Oh, there she is sleeping in her vomit.